I've done a lot of posting about being a mother lately. Unfortunately, I've been having a difficult time. It's my fault. My children are really quite good kids. I've been very blessed in that way. They are sweet, loving, playful, happy kids. My patience has been suffering though. Dealing with horrible pain on a daily basis has taken all my strength from me.
I know that even the best of mothers have bad days but it's difficult for me not to feel like a total failure when I haven't done my best.
I'm sure I'm not alone. So I thought I would share a quote by a very wise man.
“Never forget that these little ones are the sons and daughters of God and that yours is a custodial relationship to them, that He was a parent before you were parents and that He has not relinquished His parental rights or interest in these His little ones. Now, love them, take care of them. Fathers, control your tempers, now and in all the years to come. Mothers, control your voices; keep them down. Rear your children in love, in the nurture and admonition of the Lord. Take care of your little ones. Welcome them into your homes, and nurture and love them with all of your hearts. They may do, in the years that come, some things you would not want them to do, but be patient, be patient. You have not failed as long as you have tried. Never forget that” Gordon B. Hinckley (Salt Lake University Third Stake conference, 3 Nov. 1996).Mothers: You have not failed as long as you have tried. Never forget that!!
I was reading this post over at Paul Cardall's blog Living for Eden. This man is a personal hero of mine. (He is a fabulous example of strength, faith, and a positive attitude) Through the tears that were uncontrollably springing from my eyes, I saw this...
Then I really started bawling. I have no words. If you have been there, you know exactly what I mean.
Check out the rest of the series here. So very moving.
Tough times call for desperate measures and desperate measures mean I've been cooking. If effort counts toward success then I've been really successful. *eyeroll*
Shane says I've been keeping my cooking skills a secret for the past seven years. But in all honesty, I've had just as many failures as I have successes. But let me tell you, it's very upsetting to work super hard at creating a meal and putting in all this effort and time and have it just not turn out.
I've also learned, I am much better at "cooking" than I am at "baking". We ran out of bread this morning. So, instead of getting dressed and going to the store *lazy*, I decided to bake bread. It smells good. It even browned up nicely. Problem is, it didn't raise very well. They are stubby little things.
Better luck next time?
We are ALL about getting the flu shot at our house.
Immune suppression, asthma, heart transplant.... yes, I've read the risks (and done the research) and the benefits out way them.
We have every intention of getting the H1N1 vaccine. All our doctors have recommended it and we just don't have the luxury of not getting it. So I am getting super frustrated that they are so hard to find. They finally got them in my county but they are so limited none of us can get one besides Noah. Lilly should qualify but because she is 4 months over 4 years old, she can't have the shot yet. She is only allowed the Flu Mist. Problem is, because Noah is immune suppressed, no one in the family can get the mist version. It's a live virus and could make Noah VERY sick.
We are staying in and avoiding crowds but I sure would feel better if I knew we had done everything we could to keep us healthy. Come on Government!! Get with the program. You ask us all to get the vaccine... give us enough of it to do just that!!
One of my best friends is moving and it makes me sad.
It's not like she is moving out of state or across the Country. In all reality, she is only moving about 10 minutes further away. But I can't help but admit there was a part of me holding on to the dream of having our kids go to school together and go to church together. Until they decided not to move close, I was keeping up hope. Now, I'm like a little kid who doesn't get a treat at the supermarket.
That's my update for now. It's time to finish working on dinner. I am roasting a ham. I made homemade cheesy scalloped potatoes. That's all cooking. So now I need to roast some asparagus (or maybe I'll cook up the artichokes in the fridge... hum...) and set the table.
Can I just say, I can not wait until my kids are old enough to do the dishes.
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