This Doctor was horrible. He didn't do any sort of physical exam. He didn't order any labs or tests.
He told me I was looking for the boogy man in my closet. Nothing is there but I keep looking.
One of my symptoms is unexplained lactation. He said I was like the "wet nurses in the bible". There is no explanation for my lactation. I should just ignore it and not do anything to make it worse.
I sat in front of this man doing everything in my power not to cry and practically begged him to help me figure out what is going on. Whatever it is... please help me. And he said he had no idea what was wrong. Then he left to speak with his assistant and never came back. He sent her in to dismiss me. I cried the entire way home.
The only other time a Doctor has made me feel so worthless was the last time I went to this clinic and saw another Doctor there when I first started getting sick. That's the reason I dreaded going to this place again. I hoped it would be different but I think deep down I knew better. I think that's why I reached out for your prayers. Because I knew I would need the strength to keep going after being turned away again.
But I do have some good news.
I have a dear friend whose son is sick (no this isn't the good news, this is awful news). They have been seeing a Doctor that they recommend highly. I thought that I would have to pay out of pocket to see her since she works at a hospital that normally isn't covered under my insurance and I have no out of network benefits. But I found out tonight that she IS covered. I am going to call tomorrow to make an appointment. I don't know why I didn't do this sooner. Instead of putting all my eggs in one basket and waiting for one appointment with one Doctor, I should be making appointments with every Doctor I can find so I can wait for the appointments at the same time.
Regardless of the disappointment I felt today after this humiliating excuse for a Doctor appointment, I feel at peace again. I'm not giving up. I will figure this out so I can enjoy life to its fullest and be the wife and mother I want to be. I know that I feel this peace because of your prayers and good thoughts. So Thank You a millions times over!
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My prayers are with you, Crystal. I hope you'll find an answer. Did you try some sites on the Internet? It could give you another view about what's going on. There is this site called WrongDiagnosis with a multiple symptom checker. It is not a substitute for a doctor, but might give you some insights.
ReplyDeletehang in there! sending hugs and prayers!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry you had such a disappointment! That's always such a crusher. Just remember that the doctor works FOR you--and he can be FIRED for acting like a god. I always say that a doctor is like a mechanic. You'd fire a mechanic who couldn't fix your car or treated you like a dumb woman--a body mechanic (doctor) is no different. There IS someone out there who can help you. We'll keep you in our prayers!
ReplyDeleteYa, he's a scum bag! On the other hand, I'm beyond ecstatic that the other doctor is covered! That is AWESOME news! I am just so happy!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm really sorry you had such a terrible experience. Sending hugs your way.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry to hear such sad news Crystal. I do have a few connections with doctors. If you let me know what they have told you so far, what your signs and symptoms are, and what your insurance is, I can help you start looking for some answers!
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