You see, 2007 was a rough rough year. We moved, Noah was born with a Congenital Heart Defect, Lilly, Noah and I spent almost 6 months at the Ronald McDonald House in Denver so Noah could get a Heart Transplant, then we came home and Noah had surgery and was sick a lot. We had more blessings and miracles than I could possibly write but it was still hard.
I had hoped with the changing into 2008 that things would get easier. I was certain times were changing... But then Noah got RSV and ended up in the hospital (after a week of Lilly having it and being super sick at home) then there was trip after trip after trip to the ER and the hospital. Then our vacation was canceled because Shane got super sick with a bowel obstruction and had to have emergency surgery. Then on our rescheduled vacation Noah got super sick, was transported from Baker to Barstow, CA by Ambulance, our car was hit by a non-insured illegal immigrant. Then, the car broke down in the middle of the night.
Things didn't seem to get much easier. That's for sure.
But I realized something while we were on vacation. I kept wondering why all these things were happening. I wasn't complaining. I just didn't understand. Was there a lesson that I needed that I just wasn't getting? Then my Dad (who always gives me just the right advice at the right moment) gave me something to think about. He said, "Sometimes we are given challenges not because we need to learn a lesson, but just to simply see how we are going to react and handle things."
He was right.
Since that moment, my outlook has changed a bit. I'm no longer making a list. I couldn't tell you what if any "bad things" have happened since our car broke down on vacation. I stopped keeping track. I started just living my life.
Now I can say 2008 has been a good year. We had a lot of fun. We went on a wonderful vacation, we have spent lots of quality time together as a family (and just Shane and I), Noah started walking and made HUGE improvements in all his gross and fine motor skills, Lilly has FINALLY learned to use the potty (on the last day of the year, go figure), I've made some new and wonderful friends, and we are ending the year HEALTHY!!
It will be remembered as a good and blessed year.
Now, for 2009.
There are some things I want to change and I don't mind calling them resolutions. The start of a new year is a good time to reevaluate your goals and hopes and desires. So this is what I have done. Here are a few things I am putting as my New Year Resolutions:
- I want to be healthier. There is so much more to this than just losing weight. I haven't been the healthiest person the last year. After the extreme stress of 2007 I had some emotional issues that needed to be dealt with this past year. Depression and Anxiety are major demons that can affect your life. I'm making progress with this now and I hope to have that progress spill over into my physical health as well. Total mind and body well-being. That's my goal.
- I want a cleaner more organized home. I KNOW I have the skills and ability to achieve this. I don't need perfection, I just need effort. I think I can do this now.
- I want to reach out to more family's with health issues and Heart Babies to lend support and an understanding ear.
- I want to raise awareness for Organ Donation.
- I want to be as AMAZING a friend to my friends as they have been to me.
- I want to "show" Shane how much I love him more often. I want to show him how glad I am that he is home by stopping what I am doing and run to him to welcome him home at night. I want to make him special dinners so he doesn't have to slap something together after working all day.
- I want to keep playing with my kids all day so they know they are the most important thing in my life.
- I want to take more Continuing Ed classes so I can earn the Certificate I have started working towards.
- I want to read my scriptures more.
I guess the big picture is that I just learn to take what comes and be happy with what I get.
The rest is just frosting on my cake.
Be A Hero. Be An Organ Donor.