Friday May 23rd, 1997That day had been no different than any other day. I was nearing the end of my Junior year of High School. The Year Book Stomp was that night. My Best Friend Jill and I were looking forward to going and celebrating another year past and done. The day started with my favorite class of the day, Video Productions. We didn't have much to do so I spent the time painting my toenails yellow. Then I had Out Door Clothing which also wasn't very important so my friend Marc and I skipped and went to Burger King to get Breakfast.
I spent the rest of the day discussing with Jill how she was going to get out of working. I had requested to night off but for some reason she was on the schedule. She told me she wasn't going to work. It didn't matter if they would let her take the time off or not. She wasn't going in. Working wasn't nearly as important as once in a life time memories.
After school we headed over to ZCMI (now Macy's) and bought some scarfs to wrap around our heads like Audrey Hepburn since the day was kind of dreary and some new sun glasses. We were so cool. ;) Then we both went home to get ready.
Danny came to pick me up first. He had recently gotten his new jeep (new to him but actually an old version jeep, we LOVED it) so of course he had to drive. Joe wasn't coming with us because he was out of town. I believe he was on a Memorial Day trip with AJ in Moab or something... that is one thing I can't remember. Anyways, then we headed up the street to get Jill.
Now, to fully understand this next part you need a little back story. Jill and I were best friends and we were best friends with Danny and Joe. And there was this unspoken rule between us. When Joe drove I got shotgun. When Danny drove Jill got shotgun. This was just the way things were.
So when we got to Jill's house I moved to the back seat. The jeep didn't have the cover on but it did have a mini bra on that covered just the front seats. Even though it was drizzling, I didn't mind. I LOVED sitting in the back seat. Because I LOVED the Jeep and the wind in my hair. Joe told me not to ride back there because the seat wasn't hooked to the actual Jeep but what's going to happen right?
Jill came out and jumped in and the first thing she said was, "Oh, do you want to sit up front? I don't mind. You can sit up here out of the rain." I told her no. It was fine. She could stay there. But it was also so strange because I never sat up front when Danny drove. NEVER!! Odd.
So the plan was to head to Boston Market (slightly out of the way to visit our old manager) to get dinner then head to the stomp. We headed down the road, listening to music, the scarfs around our hair, not a care in the world.
About 8:25 pm on Friday May 23rd, 1997 we approached the intersection but the light turned Yellow. We were going a little too fast to stop so Danny sped up (and who hasn't done that??). It wouldn't have been a big deal, but someone who had been waiting to turn left was a little impatient and turned in front of us. Danny swerved left to avoid hitting them. We went up on two wheels. But now we were headed right for the on-coming traffic that had stopped at the light. So he swerved right. The wheels touched back down and then we went up on the other two wheels. This time we kept going. My body instantly sensed when we had gone too far and I knew we weren't going to make it back down.
The Jeep rolled. We skidded about 100 yards before coming to a stop.
When we flipped, I cracked my head against the side of the Jeep frame and passed out. Which is a good thing because as we skidded upside down, my foot was stuck between the roll bar and the road. The pressure of the Jeep and the movement of the skid acted like a cheese grater but much worse. It road rashed through my shoe and right through my foot. It took off the top of my foot and turn several of the bones to dust.
When we came to a stop I woke up and started to scream. I was hanging upside down. The only thing keeping me (and the bench seat I was sitting on) inside the Jeep was the lap seat belt I was wearing. Since the Jeep was an older model the roll bar wasn't welded on. It was only bolted on. So when we rolled, it collapsed. So as the jeep sat upside down, it was very dark as I was right against the road, trapped by the seat belt, and my foot stuck under the roll bar.
I remember Danny unbuckling his seat belt and falling down then climbing out. Then someone tried to pull me out. But I was stuck. I remember someone trying to get Jill out. Then they roll out the Jeep on it's side, unbuckled my belt and pulled me out. They dragged me over the side walk and I laid in the gutter with my legs resting up on the side walk. I sat there holding my foot, rocking back and forth. I don't remember who it was but someone kept trying to get me to lay down. Finally I did. I laid there telling myself I needed to stay awake (cause that's what they always said in the movies and on TV). So I tried so hard to stay awake and just control myself and not lose it. The Fire Station wasn't even a 1/2 mile down the street so I heard the sirens as they pulled out of the station. As I laid there in the gutter, I told myself to stay awake until help arrived. Just stay awake until help gets here. So as soon as I heard the sirens. I told myself. Oh good. Its going to be OK. Now you can go to sleep. And I felt my eyes roll back in my head and I passed out.
I woke up inside one of those extra large Fire Truck/Paramedic Truck things. I was laying flat on a board. They told me, "Crystal, I have to cut off your scarf." What did I say? "No, you can't. I just bought it!" Then "Crystal, I have to cut of your clothes." "No, you can't! These are my favorite!" Then "Crystal, I have to take off your necklace." "No, you can't! I never take it off!" (It was a best friends necklace that I hadn't taken off since my Grandmother had passed away a month earlier. She was buried with the other half.) But of course, they still had to do all of it. Then I passed out. I woke up a few minutes later to someone asking me where it hurt and pressing on my stomach. "Does it hurt here?" "No, my shoulder and my foot." "Here?" "No, my shoulder and my foot." This went on for what seemed like forever. But he finally listened and decided to check my shoulder. Except when he pressed on it, he separated the broken bone. All I heard was the HUGE CRACK and I felt my eyes roll all the way to the back of my head and out I went.
Next time I woke up they started asking me questions. What day is it? What is your name? Yada Yada Yada I answered them but sometime they took me a bit. I had to think about it. But then they asked me who the President was. I knew I knew it. But it just wouldn't come to me. I kept wanting to say Hillary but I knew that wasn't right. I thought and thought. Finally, what seemed like an hour later, it finally came to me. I yelled out "Clinton!" But by then, no one had any idea what I was talking about.
Later I found out they had been discussing how to get my to the hospital. They knew I had a head injury but they didn't know they extent. But after looking at my foot, they knew if they didn't get me to the Hospital quickly, the chances of me losing my foot were going to go up. So they decided to call in Life Flight.
The Helicopter came and I was transferred over. As we flew to the hospital I kept asking for a blanket. I was so cold. They wouldn't give me one though because they said I was just in shock. I still think it had something to do with the fact that I was naked and it was a cold rainy night.
I went back to sleep and woke up as they were taking me out of the Helicopter and into the Hospital. The took me into the ER to be checked out. Because they knew I had a head injury they took an X-Ray of my head and neck but didn't see any damage. I was so happy when they came and took that neck brace off. Those things are painful!
Then my parents showed up. An officer who took Danny and Jill to another hospital knew that the people working with me would be too busy to notify my family so he got my number from Danny and he called my house. My parents were out for the night so he spoke with my brother. My brother then called my parents to relay the message. My parents immediately came up to the hospital. When they got there, I was laying off to the side of the ER waiting to be taken in for an MRI. They knew I had some sort of brain injury because I was vomiting, not making sense when I talked, and my eyes had turned yellow and the pressure was pushing them out of my head. The only reason my parents knew it was me was because of my long blond hair and my voice. I had been so worried that they were going to be mad at me. I was afraid they would think we had been messing around or being irresponsible, so when they walked up, I remember my mom grabbed my dad's arm, and the first thing I said to them was "Don't be mad. It was our fault." My Dad was almost speechless for a minute and then he said "Crystal, I'm not going to beat you!" (My dad NEVER beat me. He was just so shocked I would say such a thing as I lay there dying.)
Then I went in for the MRI. They kept telling me to hold still but I kept rolling to the side to puke. I had a hard time staying awake after that. I remember throwing up one last time then passing out. I don't remember anything else until the next day after surgery. But from what I was told... they found a 3 inch blood clot on my brain. A Subdural Hematoma. They took me back out to tell my parents. We went right to the OR but my Dad asked if he could give me a Priesthood Blessing (I am LDS) before and the Dr agreed but said he would have to do it as they walked to the OR and he had 60 seconds. Then he started counting. 59, 58, 57... My Dad placed his hands on my head and began the blessing. Finally the Dr said, "You better hurry up Dad. We're losing her!" That was all my Dad needed to hear. "Amen!" And into surgery I went.
10 minutes after the MRI they cut into my scalp. My skull, which showed no damaged on the X-Ray fell out in pieces. The pressure from the clot and sealed the fracture so perfectly it didn't even show on the X-Ray. They clot was now 9 inches. It had tripled in size in 10 minutes. I came very near to losing my life that night. But thankfully, the Doctors were able to successfully remove the clot in time. After that was done, they cleaned up my foot a bit and tried to stabilize it until they could decide what could be done with it. Then up to the ICU I went. I would spend the next 4 days there. In and out of consciousness.
The next afternoon I woke up. I wanted more pain meds but since I just had brain surgery they had to limit the amount I was able to take... which basically means pain 24 hours a day with NO relief. My mom asked me if I remembered what had happened and I said I did. She told me about my surgery and how Danny and Jill were (Danny has some road rash on his hand, Jill had a concussion that would end up causing her some serious problems over the years. She was currently in the hospital with no memory of the accident. There is much more to her story but it's not my place to share. I will let her if she so chooses) then she said there was one more thing... I am normally the type of person that wants to know everything. That way I can be prepared. I can know what I am up against. I have never liked surprises. But this time I told her to stop. That was enough. I didn't want to know anymore. What she was going to tell me was the Doctors thought they were going to have to amputate my foot.
ICU was a hazy time. Thank goodness. I do have about 5 Polaroids that my dad took. I look horrible. I have black eyes, my lip is so swollen it touches my nose. I have a few places of road rash on my face. I have a cast on my foot up to my knee. And I have pins in my toes (that stick out of my toes) that are holding my toes onto my foot since the bones are gone. My Collar bone is broken, my hips are black and blue, and I have a draining tube coming out of the incision in my head.
Wednesday they took me into surgery where Dr. Hutchinson (a Hand Reconstructive Surgeon) was going to do a experimental surgery to try and save my foot. Since one toe had no bone left he amputated it and used the skin to cover the part of my foot that had no muscle or skin left. (A skin graft can't adhere to nothing. There has to be muscle there) Since the toe skin has muscle underneath it, her just transplanted it. Then he took a skin graft from my thigh to cover the rest of my foot that still had muscle there. Then he screwed all my remaining toes together to helped slim my foot and take up the space of the missing toe. The pins stayed in to help the other toes fuse because most of the bone was missing. By big toe was shaved flat so it doesn't bend. The next toe was the one amputated, the middle one only has about 10% of the bone left. The next toe has about 30% and the pinkie toe has about 50% of the bone left. But the tendons on the top of the foot are completely gone. BUT, the surgery was a HUGE success!!
When I came out I was moved into a regular room. I was told I would be there for about 4 weeks. But I wasn't having it. I wanted to go home. So I spent the next few days resting. Begging for more pain medicine. One night, it was so bad, I felt like my entire leg was on fire. It honestly felt as though there were flames that I just couldn't see. Nerve pain is horrible!!
One day the Doctors came in to check on me and I told them my skin graft was draining and starting to smell. Well, if you know anything about skin grafts, they put this dressing on that is suppose to stay on and act as a scab. It keeps the air off (because air BURNS raw skin) and as the wound heals the dressing dries and it slowly comes off. Well, this NOT so wonderful Dr takes a look at it, and decides without warning to PULL IT OFF!! I yelled so loud. I didn't mean to. But sometimes the body needs to release. And that was the only thing I could do. If I didn't have a broken collar bone I probably would have slapped him. Needless to say it was horrible.
But after that, I really wanted to go home. Unfortunately, they wouldn't let me until I could sleep the entire night through. So, being the 17 year old that I was, I asked my mom to stay with me. And being the wonderful mother that she is, she did. She didn't do anything. All she did was suffer sleeping on an uncomfortable cot. But knowing she was there comforted me in a way that only a mother can. I slept all through the night that night. And I went home the next day.
I spent 8 days in the hospital. For an accident that would have decapitated me had I been wearing a shoulder harness seat belt, that nearly took my life due to a blot clot on my brain, that tried to steal my foot from me, that the doctors said I would be in the hospital for for at least 4 weeks, that they said I would never walk again with out a limp, I went home after 8 days and I only walk with a limp if I've walked all day or my foot hurts.
I am here today because when I needed it most, I had family, friends, and even strangers who prayed and fasted for me. Because I have a Heavenly Father who knows when his children need him. Because even then, I was being prepared for things yet to come.
This story doesn't end here. There is so much for to my recovery, to the lessons I learned, to the miracles I witness and experienced. But this story has taken me all day to write. And if you made it this far, you deserve a break. With tomorrow being my special day I hope to post a few more things that hold a special place in my heart. I just needed to share my story. Not for you, but for me. Because I am so grateful for this experience. I am so grateful for what I have been given. This was a HUGE turning point in my life and if I had to go back, I wouldn't change a thing. It wasn't easy by any means but it made me who I am today and has helped me through so many other things I have gone through... this past year in particular.
Anyways, thank you for reading my story. If I can leave you with anything let it be this...
Life gives us challenges and obstacles but it is up to us what we make of them. We can say why me or we can say what can I learn from this. We can allow something to break us or we can help it make us stronger. Either way, its up to us. Be grateful for all that you have. Life is a wonderful gift. Family is joy. And there is beauty all around you.
Much Love,